so to start off I saw New moon.
I loved it but the ending pissed me off I don't have much to say about it because i don't want to spoil it.

I am currently typing up my yaoi stories lol I have nothing better to do so why not

The reason for my title is because I feel really numb and empty again because of my family. Mainly my brother... he keeps hitting and kicking me and it's killing me and my mother. The sad part is I'm older than him and I'm whining about it on the computer. Yeah, it's pathetic but if I do anything it gets worse. I'm sorry I always whine and complain but I'm not strong enough to do something.

I also feel guilty because I hurt my friends even more. I put on a smile and everythings alright. But some friends see through it and they shouldn't worry about someone like me. I end up hurting them. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm scared to lose everything. But I won't give up, I can't give up like I did once and it just hurt more. My heart is aching but my tears are dried out.

These are some things I needed to get off my chest and I feel better now. Please don't worry I won't do anything wreckless or stupid. Thanks for listening to my bitchin and complaining.